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More Writing

I feel the need to start writing more. But most of what I want to write isn’t necessarily stuff I want to share with anyone. I just want to write them for myself…personal thoughts, writing exercises, my lame stories, plots and made-up characters. I want to write fiction, but I know I’m no where near good enough for anyone to read my writing.

So I’m trying to decide what to do. Do I write online, so that I can write from work and from home and on the go from my phone? Do I go the old-fashioned style and use paper and pen? I’ve tried that numerous times and it doesn’t seem to get me very far. I have countless notebooks with maybe a few pages written in it and it’s random crap that doesn’t mean anything. Do I just use my personal computer and write only from home (restricting me from writing when a thought comes to mind that I want to jot down and I don’t have my home computer there to capture the thought)?

At one point in time I found this great app for the Mac called MacJournal. I used it quite a bit, but when they upgraded it was no longer free. I also found a pretty neat freeware app for Windows to use at work, but neither was compatible with the other so nothing I wrote in one would transfer to the other. And I shouldn’t really be installing stuff on my work computer anyway. I was thinking an anonymous blog of sort where I can just write without anyone knowing who I am, but I have tried that before as well and I never wrote anything. Too much of a hassle to keep up with yet another totally separate blog. I already have 2 that I hardly maintain as it is.

Decisions, decisions. I am leaning more towards the separate blog though because then I could write to it from anywhere as long as I have some sort of internet access and now that I have an iPhone, a connection is much easier. Now to figure out which blog platform I want to use and where to host it. ha! It’s obviously going to be a free host, but I want to be able to customize the appearance to something very simple and clean with not a whole lot of clutter.

Nope, not telling you where it is…that’s the whole point of being anonymous blogger…to give the reader enough info to make them feel they know you, but not really reveal the whole truth.

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Card Carrying Addict

I’m officially a card-carrying addict of Starbucks coffee. We had our weekly knit night at Starbucks and I took the plunge. I got a Starbucks card and put $20 on it. I figured why not, since I’m there every week and some times I just don’t have the cash. I did this time, so now I have a little stash of coffee money I can use when I go knit. woohoo!!

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My Water Girl

We bought a small pool for Amelia this weekend. It’s big enough for the three of us to sit in so that’s nice. Amelia had a blast playing and splashing. She even laid down in the pool with her head just above the water. She did really well. She’s our little water girl. We had such an adventurous day on Saturday that she slept til 9am Sunday morning!! It was a nice morning of sleeping in for us. We went swimming again on Sunday and she went to bed 30 minutes earlier than usual. We definitely wore her out this weekend. But I know she had a great time.

In other news, sis and I got our tickets this morning to the New Kids on the Block concert. We’ll be in Atlanta Oct 29 for the big event. Woohoo!! I’m so excited!

We went to Birmingham this weekend as well and got my new iPod Touch. yeah! It’s awesome. I love it. I just wish I could get online more. I only have online access at home so far. We don’t have wireless at work and I haven’t yet tried taking it anywhere else in town to see what it will connect to. But so far I really like it. I had trouble with my user account though. iTunes wasn’t recognizing my iPhoto Library so I couldn’t sync pictures. I ended up having to create a new user account and move all my stuff over to the new account. That took forever to get it all moved over and working again. But I got it all fixed. I created 3 smart albums in iPhoto. One of them uses keyword Amelia, since I tag all of her photos with that keyword. Then I also added a date range of the last 3 months to it. So I can always have the latest 3 months worth of photos of Amelia on my iPod. The other 2 smart albums were similar except using keywords knitting and handspun. Even with all those photos and several new podcasts, I still had a bunch of disc space left. I’m not used to having 8GB of space. My Nano only has 4GB.

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Inadequacy

I’m once again having inadequacy issues. I feel like I’m not doing as much as I should, as a wife, in the home, as a mom, at work.

My house is a wreck, I keep forgetting stuff for daycare, I feel like I’m missing too many days of work and not getting anything done. And I feel like I’m neglecting my husband. Not sure what to do about it all, except to forget that I’m my own person and start focusing on everything and everyone else so that things get accomplished and finished and done, etc.

I’m still sort of in a budget crunch so I have no idea how I’m going to manage Christmas this year. I’ve only bought Amelia one gift. I haven’t even thought about what to do for her teachers or my secret Santa at work, much less the rest of my family. My house is a mess and needs a good cleaning (as in mopping, vacuuming, dusting, etc). I really need some help with Amelia, because lately I’ve been getting so frazzled trying to do everything myself since DH was sick or gone. I’m hoping her ear tubes will keep her from getting sick so much, so I won’t have to miss as much work.

Plus, I’d like to find a little more time to get some of my knitting projects done. I’m starting to loathe the fact that they take forever to finish. It’s getting ridiculous. I never get to start anything new, because I’m still working on the same ‘ol stuff I’ve been working on for the past several months or even years. But that’s something for me and we all know that moms don’t get to do stuff for themselves very often.

We must always put husbands and children and home before ourselves. So maybe those will never get done. Which wouldn’t be so bad if I at least felt that the rest was getting done. But it’s not getting done either. And I don’t know why because I feel like I’m constant doing stuff. And I feel like I’m getting pressure to sit and watch television with my husband, which would be spending quality time with him and it should count, but then I feel I should be doing something else instead of just sitting there.

I guess I’m in a no-win situation and it’s starting to get a little overwhelming.

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Hacked!

My site was hacked. Apparently I was running a vulnerable php script and it allowed my site to be compromised. The offensive script has been removed, but sheesh! I didn’t even know it.

For a while I was freaking out, thinking I might have lost all my posts from the past 5 years. That would have been very disappointing. So I hope to make a better effort to back up my site and all databases on a regular basis from now on. In case something crazy like this happens again, I will at least have a copy of all my posts. The rest of the site isn’t really that critical. I can throw together a new layout. But I like looking back into the archives and reading about what was going on back in the day.

So, the thing to remember is, always back up. I was lucky and the junk was cleaned out and nothing was lost. But it could have been devastating.

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I’ve been tagged

I’m supposed to tell you all 8 things about me you didn’t already know. That’s a little tough seeing as how I can even finish my 100 things about me post. LOL! But, let’s see…

1. My family used to own a poodle named Princess.
2. I used to run around in Wonder Woman underoos. (Yeah I was an 80’s child!)
3. I’ve gotten a perm before, then used a home perm to straighten out the curls.
4. I’ve lived in Panama before.
5. I’m allergic to penicillin-based and sulfur-based antibiotics.
6. I was a girl scout.
7. I’m really bad about starting something and never finishing it.
8. I talk to myself out loud when no one else is around. I guess that comes from being an only child for 8 years and learning to play by myself.

So there you go. 8 things I haven’t mentioned in my about page. Crap, now I have to come up with something totally different to add there. Agh!

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Cloudy or Not?

I was driving to work this morning and the sky looked so wicked! It was a typical sunny, bright blue sky morning, but there were some gray clouds hanging around. It was so wild, you could really see the blue sky behind the dark clouds. I don’t think I’ve ever seen that before. It was so cool, I wished I had my camera.

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Girls Weekend Out

I’m going up to Atlanta on Friday to spend the weekend with my sister. DH is staying home with Amelia. I might be teaching sis to knit. We’ll definitely be hitting up some knit shops, since I need some supplies. And we might go see the new Harry Potter movie. I’ve been looking forward to this weekend away for some time, but it will be a little tough…

You see, this is the first time I will be away from my baby girl overnight! Not sure how I’ll do, but I know it’s going to be tough going 2 days without her. I plan to take the laptop and hopefully DH and I can video chat so we can at least see each other.

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Magazines

I’ve turned into a magazine junkie. I have no idea why, but suddenly I’m subscribed to 4 magazines. Two are baby magazines… Parents and Baby Talk. The other two are scrapbooking. Simple Scrapbooks and Digital Scrapbooking.

Baby Talk (BT) is free and I’ve had it since I got pregnant. Parents was cheap so I got a 3 year subscription. I mainly use Simple Scrapbooks for the layout inspiration. I like to scraplift and love the simple layouts. Digital Scrapbooking is great because it focuses on specific techniques for digital layouts.

So I’m now have plenty of reading material besides all the books I’ve yet to read sitting on my bookshelf collecting dust. LOL!

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Happy Birthday

I want to wish my little sister a huge Happy Birthday. Today she turned 24 and I can’t believe my baby sister is that old. I moved out and on to college when she was in high school, so I still have a hard time sometimes remembering that she isn’t 16 anymore. She graduated with a Masters in Library Science in December and will soon be moving away from home and starting her career as a Librarian. I’m very proud of all she accomplished. She was Valedictorian of her graduating class in high school and graduated summa cum laude undergrad. I’m sure she did the same with her graduate degree as well. She is very smart even if she has no common sense.

She’s my best friend, even though she’s 8 years younger than me. So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NEZ!!!

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Make Me Cry

Here’s a few songs that make me cry no matter how many times I hear them:

1. Love, Me by Collin Raye
2. In My Daughter’s Eyes by Martina McBride
3. I Loved Her First by Heartland
4. Somebody’s Hero by Jamie O’Neal
5. Alyssa Lies by Jason Michael Carroll
6. The Woman in My Life by Phil Vassar

I’m sure there are probably plenty more, but these are the ones I can remember off the top of my head.

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All About Me

I’m working on a 100 things about me list and it’s so hard to find interesting facts about myself. I don’t want it to be all the usual normal boring stuff. I want some interesting facts. So needless to say, it’s been a struggle and I’m only about 35 facts into it. Obviously it will be a while before it’s available.

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The blog world

I’ve been so out of the loop in the blog world. It’s been years since I’ve actually kept up a regular blog. For a while I switched the blog over and it was primarily a knitting blog. I only kept up with the knitters. Heck, even most of the old bloggers I used to read daily have disappeared. But it feels pretty neat to be getting back into it and finding some of the old folks still around.

Well, I’m back. I hope. I really plan to try to keep this blog up to date again with posts and other content. More to come as time goes on I’m sure. Will also try my best not to get rid of content like I have so many times in the past. I feel like I’m starting over in the blog world, but that’s okay. With a new year and a new baby, it’s start to start anew.

So here I go…jumping into the murky waters of the www with an active personal weblog. I hope to get a least a handful of readers in the process (like I had in the past), so if you like what you see, please give me a linky-loo and get me started.

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