Almost Two!
My daughter will be two in a month! I can’t believe my baby will be 2. It seems like just yesterday I was saying hello to my newborn. I still remember when my water broke and we were on our way to the hospital at 4am. And despite being in a heavily drug-induced state, I still remember bits and pieces of my labor and delivery.
My baby quickly outgrew her baby stage and is now a full-fledged toddler leading me headfirst into the terrible-twos stage. I love that she interacts, talks and has a whole personality of her own. But I sure miss those days when she would fall asleep in my arms and I could just sit and cuddle her.
I do have plenty of regrets. I guess all parents do. I wish I’d held her more…I wish I could have breastfed her, or at least tried harder. I wish my recovery hadn’t been so hard, so I had more time to treasure those first days. But by the way she is attached to me, I know that despite all those things, we have a very strong, special bond. I may have missed out on all those other moments, but I’ve definitely shown her that my love in unconditional, and without limit. She knows she can always count on me and I’m pretty confident that she feels safe with me. That’s all I can ask for. So I guess despite the things I wish I’d done differently, our mother-daughter bond has not suffered for it.When I walk in the door after a long day at work, she runs to me, screaming “Mommy,” with joy on her face, excited to see me. That never gets old. She always wants to be where I’m at, wants me to hold her, or to play with her. Sure, it gets tiring when I need to get something done, but I’m learning to slow down and appreciate these moments, because sooner than I think, it won’t be like that anymore. She won’t want to do anything that involves mom, so I’m slowly learning to enjoy it now, and not get caught up in the stuff that’s not so important. The dishes can wait a few more hours.
Yeah…just before you realize it she will coming up on 16 (like Ian) and want nothing to do with you…. I am bitter. It’s not that he doesn’t want anything to do with me, it’s that I am not #1 in his life anymore and it’s hard on me!!!! Treasure these moments!!!! I now am so glad I have lots of pictures to prove to him that he used to think I was #1…LOL