Archive for September, 2008
Thursday, September 25th, 2008
I feel the need to start writing more. But most of what I want to write isn’t necessarily stuff I want to share with anyone. I just want to write them for myself…personal thoughts, writing exercises, my lame stories, plots and made-up characters. I want to write fiction, but I know I’m no where near good enough for anyone to read my writing.
So I’m trying to decide what to do. Do I write online, so that I can write from work and from home and on the go from my phone? Do I go the old-fashioned style and use paper and pen? I’ve tried that numerous times and it doesn’t seem to get me very far. I have countless notebooks with maybe a few pages written in it and it’s random crap that doesn’t mean anything. Do I just use my personal computer and write only from home (restricting me from writing when a thought comes to mind that I want to jot down and I don’t have my home computer there to capture the thought)?
At one point in time I found this great app for the Mac called MacJournal. I used it quite a bit, but when they upgraded it was no longer free. I also found a pretty neat freeware app for Windows to use at work, but neither was compatible with the other so nothing I wrote in one would transfer to the other. And I shouldn’t really be installing stuff on my work computer anyway. I was thinking an anonymous blog of sort where I can just write without anyone knowing who I am, but I have tried that before as well and I never wrote anything. Too much of a hassle to keep up with yet another totally separate blog. I already have 2 that I hardly maintain as it is.
Decisions, decisions. I am leaning more towards the separate blog though because then I could write to it from anywhere as long as I have some sort of internet access and now that I have an iPhone, a connection is much easier. Now to figure out which blog platform I want to use and where to host it. ha! It’s obviously going to be a free host, but I want to be able to customize the appearance to something very simple and clean with not a whole lot of clutter.
Nope, not telling you where it is…that’s the whole point of being anonymous blogger…to give the reader enough info to make them feel they know you, but not really reveal the whole truth.
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Wednesday, September 24th, 2008
We are in the process of switching Amelia to a big girl bed. Actually a toddler bed, but it’s much more grown up than the crib. We started on Sunday night, so this was her 3rd night with the new bed. She did good Sunday night, although it took an hour to get her to tire enough to stay in bed, but she slept all night long and got up just after 5am. Monday night, we started the the whole bedtime thing too late and she ended up overexhausted and had a meltdown so we put her in her crib to cry it out. It only took about 5-10 min for her to finally go to sleep. Then last night, we started much earlier. After about 30 minutes of getting back out of the bed, we left her nightlight on and closed her door, so at least she had to stay in her room. She cried, but after 20-30 minutes she had settled down. And when DH went to check on her, she was sleeping on her changing pad on the floor in front of the door. He moved her to her bed and she slept til about 1:45 when she got up and went to the kitchen. She went straight to the fridge wanting a cup of water. I gave it to her and took her back to bed, telling her it was still night time and she had to stay in bed and try to go back to sleep. I guess all she needed was a drink, because she stayed in her bed, although I’m pretty sure it took her a little while to get back to sleep. I could hear her coughing. And she stayed there sleeping til I woke her around 7am this morning.
So it’s going okay for the first few nights. I hope she keeps it up and soon realizes that bedtime means staying in bed and not playing. And maybe by her birthday we’ll be able to take the crib out of her room for good. My baby really is growing up.
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Thursday, September 18th, 2008
My daughter will be two in a month! I can’t believe my baby will be 2. It seems like just yesterday I was saying hello to my newborn. I still remember when my water broke and we were on our way to the hospital at 4am. And despite being in a heavily drug-induced state, I still remember bits and pieces of my labor and delivery.
My baby quickly outgrew her baby stage and is now a full-fledged toddler leading me headfirst into the terrible-twos stage. I love that she interacts, talks and has a whole personality of her own. But I sure miss those days when she would fall asleep in my arms and I could just sit and cuddle her.
I do have plenty of regrets. I guess all parents do. I wish I’d held her more…I wish I could have breastfed her, or at least tried harder. I wish my recovery hadn’t been so hard, so I had more time to treasure those first days. But by the way she is attached to me, I know that despite all those things, we have a very strong, special bond. I may have missed out on all those other moments, but I’ve definitely shown her that my love in unconditional, and without limit. She knows she can always count on me and I’m pretty confident that she feels safe with me. That’s all I can ask for. So I guess despite the things I wish I’d done differently, our mother-daughter bond has not suffered for it.When I walk in the door after a long day at work, she runs to me, screaming “Mommy,” with joy on her face, excited to see me. That never gets old. She always wants to be where I’m at, wants me to hold her, or to play with her. Sure, it gets tiring when I need to get something done, but I’m learning to slow down and appreciate these moments, because sooner than I think, it won’t be like that anymore. She won’t want to do anything that involves mom, so I’m slowly learning to enjoy it now, and not get caught up in the stuff that’s not so important. The dishes can wait a few more hours.
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Tuesday, September 16th, 2008
Please publish your feed with full posts…no excerpts that leave me hanging. I just got a new iPhone and I suspect that I will be using it more for my blog feeds because it’s an easy way to keep up with what’s going on.
Sure, I can visit your site on my phone, but it comes up in teeny tiny print that I must resize in order to read anything, but it’s such a pain in the butt, that it’s just not worth it.
Please!
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Friday, September 12th, 2008
I got an iPhone. I’m so excited. I love being able to get online from wherever.
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Monday, September 8th, 2008
My little one is growing up and everyday there is something new that reminds me she isn’t a baby anymore.
She can now tell/show me where she bumped herself if she for example bumps her head or stubs her toe. She’ll even kiss her own ouchies, just like mommy does.
She mumbles conversations of gibberish to me, like she’s telling me some important story. It’s adorable and I can’t help but laugh.
She understands when I tell her to eat 2 more bites of food and then I’ll give her paci back to her.
She asks for help when she needs it. And will ask for her snacks when she wants something to eat. The other day she ran to the fridge trying to open the freezer door saying “ice cream”.
Last night when I asked what we should do next (it was bathtime), she blurted out “bike ride”. DH laughed! What a stinker!
This morning when I went to get her out of her crib, she wasn’t quite ready to get up, so she told me to put the railing back up, turn the light out and leave the room!
She’s in the “mine” stage where everything is hers, even if it’s the food on our plate! She’s definitely in her terrible twos and her birthday is still over a month away.
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