mamaLove

I had a guilty conscience last night. Why? I get home from a long day at work. Amelia gets home from a long day at daycare where she most likely wears herself out playing, especially outside lately because it’s so hot. She’s hungry but cranky because she’s tired and she wants my attention.

I’m tired from working all day and I’m trying to get her fed and cook our dinner. But all she does is fuss. She doesn’t want to eat anything I give her. That gets so frustrating because she needs to eat something healthy, not just a banana and goldfish. I try so many different food and lately all she does it play with it. She wants it so she can play, not so she can eat it.

Plus she wants me to hold her, which makes it difficult to cook, and I’d love to be able to cook a meal and all of us eat it, instead of getting her something quick and then after she’s in bed cook our dinner. I want to be able to cook and her eat it as well.

But after being apart all day long, it’s no wonder she wants my attention. And I should treasure that 90 minutes that we have in the evenings. Yes, it’s only an hour and a half that I spend with her when I get home, then she’s off to bed. So I really don’t want to spend it every night arguing with her about eating her dinner instead of playing with it. or telling her I can’t just hold her all evening because I have to cook.

So last night, I got so frustrated and guilty because I spent most of that precious time fussing with her and not enjoying and treasuring that time. I made a promise to her (although she was asleep and didn’t hear it) that I would try to be better at enjoying that time instead of making it a frustrating hour for both of us.