…discovering there’s more to life than being the mommy
I’m redesigning Amelia’s photo gallery website and I need a name for it. I had originally chosen “munchkin munchkin” but DH doesn’t like it. So I’m trying to come up with something else cute that will fit in with the fonts I chose. The name I chose lined up perfectly in the “logo”, but I can’t find any other name that would like as good. Any suggestions?
There is an article at MSNBC that talks about how technology is being used as a tool of power and control in situations of domestic violence. It’s a very informative article and the things discussed are some I never would have considered.
But what gets me are the comments that were made on this article. Many of them are extremely negative and supportive of the abuser’s actions because they somehow interpreted the article to be about spying on a cheating spouse. That the husband had a right to spy on his wife if he thought she was cheating and that she was probably asking for it. The issue isn’t about a cheating spouse. The issue is about an abusive relationship and how the husband used technology to keep track of his wife’s actions. Just another way of exerting control and power over her.
How they managed to take this article and turn it into something completely different and controversial amazes me.
Last night I had a dream. Everyone keeps telling me that when Amelia’s teeth start coming in, they will all start coming in at the same time. In my dream, this is exactly what happened. And we sat there and watched them shoot out of her gums like a flower in bloom on fast-forward. Of course she was fussing and we mentioned that we needed to stop and get some teething tablets (we were on our way somewhere). But suddenly Amelia had 4 teeth on the bottom and 4 on top. Like within 10 minutes they were all there. It was so bizarre, but I remember feeling sad, because her cute gummy smile of babyhood was gone. And I also remember thinking I was going to have to post about her teeth on my blog.
Amelia started babbling “mama” this morning. It’s so cute!! I’m not sure she means me yet, but it’s still music to my ears, of course. 
I think she’s finally getting over her cold, minus the massive congestion that has her gagging a little. She was definitely acting herself last night, even giving me tons of kisses and she went to bed without hardly a fuss.
She’s also been happier when I leave her at daycare. No crying anymore when I leave her there. The past few days, she’s been smiling and playing when I leave, which is more like her.
But that’s another frustration I have…daycare. I love that she gets the interaction with the other kids. It’s great and since I have no choice, seeing that I have to work, I’m happy with the daycare we’ve chosen. But…
It frustrates me so much that she’s constantly sick. I hate it. I feel bad for her and I end up missing so much work because I have to keep her at home. It’s very unproductive and it irritates me because I know if she wasn’t at daycare every day, she’s probably rarely be sick. As it happens, she’s almost constantly got some bug. But what else can I do. I can’t quit my job and I can’t afford private care, even if I knew of any in the area.
I guess there’s pros and cons to every situation and you do the best you can, but I can’t help but feel guilty. I’m a mom.
I had a great weekend with my sister teaching her to knit and going yarn shopping. It was great but I missed my little munchkin and I know she missed me. DH and I video chat Saturday morning so I got to see Amelia via the computer and she got to see me, but it just wasn’t the same as being there physically. She had a great time with her daddy and they went out and played together lots, but I’m glad to be home with my little girl again.
She was super clingy yesterday and wouldn’t let me put her down. I practically held her all day long. She wouldn’t go to sleep either. She’d fall asleep in my arms and the second I leaned over her crib to lay her down she’s start bawling again. It was a rough day of her doing nothing but crying. I had to go out for a drive to get her to nap and that is so unlike her. She has never been this clingy before. She was pulling away from everyone that wanted to hold her (that she sees everyday).
It made me feel so guilty for leaving and being away. It’s horrible. It was only for 2 nights, but I guess to her it felt like forever. Don’t guess I’ll be doing that again anytime soon.
I had a great weekend with my sister teaching her to knit and going yarn shopping. It was great but I missed my little munchkin and I know she missed me. DH and I video chat Saturday morning so I got to see Amelia via the computer and she got to see me, but it just wasn’t the same as being there physically. She had a great time with her daddy and they went out and played together lots, but I’m glad to be home with my little girl again.
She was super clingy yesterday and wouldn’t let me put her down. I practically held her all day long. She wouldn’t go to sleep either. She’d fall asleep in my arms and the second I leaned over her crib to lay her down she’s start bawling again. It was a rough day of her doing nothing but crying. I had to go out for a drive to get her to nap and that is so unlike her. She has never been this clingy before. She was pulling away from everyone that wanted to hold her (that she sees everyday).
It made me feel so guilty for leaving and being away. It’s horrible. It was only for 2 nights, but I guess to her it felt like forever. Don’t guess I’ll be doing that again anytime soon.
mamaLove is the personal site of Rayne Bair. Happily married since 2001 and proud mama of one adorable little girl. This site details a journey through motherhood and the discovery that there is life beyond being the mom. learn more ...
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