Oh Mama!
Amelia started babbling “mama” this morning. It’s so cute!! I’m not sure she means me yet, but it’s still music to my ears, of course. 
I think she’s finally getting over her cold, minus the massive congestion that has her gagging a little. She was definitely acting herself last night, even giving me tons of kisses and she went to bed without hardly a fuss.
She’s also been happier when I leave her at daycare. No crying anymore when I leave her there. The past few days, she’s been smiling and playing when I leave, which is more like her.
But that’s another frustration I have…daycare. I love that she gets the interaction with the other kids. It’s great and since I have no choice, seeing that I have to work, I’m happy with the daycare we’ve chosen. But…
It frustrates me so much that she’s constantly sick. I hate it. I feel bad for her and I end up missing so much work because I have to keep her at home. It’s very unproductive and it irritates me because I know if she wasn’t at daycare every day, she’s probably rarely be sick. As it happens, she’s almost constantly got some bug. But what else can I do. I can’t quit my job and I can’t afford private care, even if I knew of any in the area.
I guess there’s pros and cons to every situation and you do the best you can, but I can’t help but feel guilty. I’m a mom.
There’s just something about the words mama that melts your heart! And you’re right – your a Mom – I’m pretty sure the guilt never stops!