Ready or Not?

Well, I’m not sure about anything anymore. This past weekend, Friday, DH kept talking about babies. Like my stomach would get bigger as soon as I stop taking the pill, and that I better get LASIK done before he gets me pregnant. And all of this is stuff he brought up on his own, without my encouragement. It started the day before while we were talking about it with a friend. W asked when we were going to have a baby and I said that I’m ready and I think it’s time since I’ll be 30 soon. W said he hated to agree with me, but…and DH said, yeah, I know. Then while we were hanging out with friends on Friday night, there was talk of us making babies and he was all for it. Then, I know he was drunk, but back at the hotel, he wanted to make a baby, but we were too drunk and it felt akward with our friends in the other bed asleep (we shared a hotel room for New Years with some friends). Then Saturday afternoon, before he left to play disc golf, he said that we’d try to make a baby when he got back later that evening. Hmm.

Then Sunday or Monday night, he said he wanted to get busy, but that it would be a bad thing, because it might make a baby. And he hasn’t mentioned anything at all about it, good or bad, since. So I’m just not sure what to think. He kept giving me a lot of signals that he was ready many times throughout the weekend. Then it’s like he was back to his normal self of avoiding the issue. But he hasn’t mentioned anything about me starting back on the pill and I know he is aware that I’m not taking it anymore.

I’m so confused and am afraid to bring it up. Maybe he is avoiding the issue, because I’m so gung-ho about getting LASIK done this month, that maybe he realizes that I can’t get it done if I get pregnant and he’s wanting me to have the surgery first. I’m hoping that’s what it is, because the time he said something about me hurrying up to get it done, I mentioned that they probably wouldn’t do the surgery on a pregnant woman. I have no idea what to think and I don’t want to bring it up. I’ll just let it go for now since I do want to have the LASIK and I know if I got pregnant it would be a year at least before I could consider it again. Let’s hope he gets gung-ho about it again after I have the surgery.